Wow, Where Have You Been?!

That’s probably the question everyone would be asking if I had a super, popular blog.  The truth is, I don’t really deserve to have a lot of readers, because I have been extremely inconsistent with my writing.  The last time I wrote was to talk about how I was going to catch everyone up on what’s been going on in my life.  So, I suppose that, despite the fact it’s been over a month since I said that, I should go ahead and follow through.

First off, I believe that before I took my long leave of absence I was talking about the crazy exam I was going to have to take to get my nursing license.  Well, I took the NCLEX on December 23, 2008 and found out on Christmas Day that I passed.  It was a great present to myself for Christmas.

Many of you probably don’t know, but the NCLEX is a very complex exam.  It is personalized just for you.  This is because from the very first question you answer, it analyzes your answer and decides if you need more questions regarding that subject.  It will keep asking question after question until it knows for sure that you’ve really passed or you’ve really failed.  There is a minimum number of questions, 85, and a maximum number of questions, 205.  If the computer decides that it doesn’t have enough information to pass or fail you after the 85th question, it will continue to ask you questions until the results are definite, or until you’ve reached the maximum number of questions.

Now that you know a little about the test, you might understand how nerve racking this test could be.  You’re being asked what seems to be an infinite number of questions, and at the end there’s just really no way of telling whether you’ve passed or failed!  I got the minimum number of questions on the exam.  My computer shut off after I answered question number 85, and I FREAKED.  I look at it like it was a person who had just given my the worst insult possible, and though, “Wait a minute!  I didn’t even get a chance to prove I could pass!”  I then raised my hand so the proctor could walk me out of the room.

I didn’t know I could go through so many emotions all at once.  I was sick to my stomach because I had no clue if I passed, but I was also relieved and felt like I had a huge weight lifted off my shoulders since it was over.  The next two days were the longest days I’ve ever waited for to pass.  I checked the website to find out my results almost every hour, and if I wasn’t around a computer I obsessed about it in my mind.   The last time I checked it was on Christmas Day at around 10:00 AM, and it finally said that my results were available.

I know I said earlier that after I took my test I had never gone through so many emotions all at once, but I lied.  My emotions went haywire during that 2 minutes of seeing that my results were ready, paying to see them, and clicking the “next” button to get to the page to see them.  First I had this little butterfly flutter in my stomach, then I felt like I was going to vomit, then I felt anxious to get done with the payment process, then I was so nervous I really almost did vomit, and finally, I was ecstatic when I saw that one little word, “PASSED.”  It was seriously one of the happiest moments of my life.  I was officially a NURSE!

This blog is going to have to be continued at another time.  I will continue to update everyone on what has been going on over the past few months, but it’s obviously going to have to be broken into several blogs.  Can’t wait to tell everyone about my new job,  my boyfriend, and my return to UofL.